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August 15th, 2006
06:41 pm - Last Post
My parents are relieved.
My friends from my old gang don't care either way. We hang every now and then, but I don't skate much anymore. I can't pretend to fly when I tasted the real thing. Maybe it's like when the guys on heroin go on methadone. It'll never be the same high.
Wicked's living with us now. She hogs the bathroom.
Kate and Timothy are still okay. I've e-mailed June a couple times because she lost her powers too. She's probably happy about it. I can't fly anymore.
It sucks. It sucks every day I wake up and know that I can't fly. It's not even like there was some government CURE where the people who didn't want their powers could get out of it.
I didn't have a choice. But I can choose now. I got my green belt, so I can fight. I have connections with the school, and I'm not going to let that go. These people are my friends, and they deserve to be protected. Just because I don't have my powers anymore doesn't mean I'm powerless. That's what the school taught me, that's what my parents taught me, and I'm going to do what I can to keep my friends safe.
Nobody better try to go to that school looking for trouble. The Wingman's still on the job.
Maybe one of them can get me a jet pack or something.
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August 1st, 2005
08:38 pm
So we met these kids at the mall, some other mutants that didn't go to the school. Kate did pretty well for herself, but we have to talk about that name. Arden? What the hell is that? At least I picked a name that was about flying. She should be Door or Portal or something cool like that. But then, Wicked's name doesn't have anything to do with her power. Ghost would be cool. Or Spectre. Nah. Spectre's lame. Wicked'll work.
Anyway, we met these mutants who were pretty cool. Headbutt was the leader of the three of them. He had these big ram's horns on his head that looked hella-cool. I wonder how hard he can ram something without braining himself. I mean, rams have some weird-ass skulls so they can do that, right? The others were Bleach (albino chick that looks like she blends in with whatever color she touches) and Geyser (quiet guy who can control water - hit the mall cops with the fountain).
They were pretty cool. They're going to another school for mutants, a place called St. Jude's. I googled it, but I got all these hospital references and nothing about a school.
I dunno. I'll check it out over break.
I did okay on my finals, and Mr. Summers took me and Timothy to the Motor Vehicles Bureau and we both got our learner's permits! That means supervised driving until we're eighteen and can get our licenses. How cool is THAT? I made it through Logan's Martial Arts class without getting my ass truly kicked, and Miss Sine's final was weird, but I think I did good.
Miss Rogue said that I could pick my own scenario in the Danger Room for a bonus before the break. I wonder if they'll let me come visit and do Danger Room stuff over break. I mean, Wicked's staying at the school over the break, right?
I wonder if she'll let me wear one of the uniforms. That'd be so cool.
I haven't talked to Sam at all. I don't think we were ready for anything yet. I don't know what I'm ready for, really. I see Kate and Timothy, and it's cool and all. I'm glad for her. Maybe if she didn't already have him...nah. She'd laugh at me or something.
I hope Miss Rogue lets me wear one of the uniforms. I'm so gonna be an X-Man.
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June 3rd, 2005
09:33 am
What an awesome week...not.
I had the most awkward conversation ever with Sam where I thought she was half-breaking up with me but apologizing at the same time. I mean, all the signs were there...it's not you, it's me, we can still be friends...but then she talked about going back to the way things were and I don't know what the hell to do.
She still won't tell me what freaked her out, and I'm NOT going to chance freaking her out again or we'll never get back to the way things were. I told her that I'm cool with just being friends for a while until she works things out, but that wasn't what she wanted either and I just don't know what to do.
Kate helped a little, just by suggesting I try to be there for her as a friend, but she hasn't even answered my e-mail. I don't know what the fuck she wants and I know she has some kinds of issues to work through and no matter what I do I'm doing it wrong and I'm the jerk out of all of it.
Fuck.
And Wicked made me fall off the roof. Stupid ghosts.
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May 26th, 2005
09:21 am
I talked to Mr. Summers about my folks getting hassled. He said he'd look into it, and that they would take steps to see that nothing "escalated", but that it would depend on my parents actually asking for the help.
I know they won't. That's why they rock, even when they're the ones that ground my ass for the least little thing. I hope that things don't get any worse.
Rogue helped me let off a little steam the other week. She took me into the Danger Room and let me fly as far and fast as I wanted. She got me talking too. Got me thinking about Hayle and got me all mad because I started feeling sorry for him. Hayle's dad got killed a year and a half ago, and I know that if I lost my dad I think I'd go a little crazy too.
Then I remember what he did to Kate and I get mad at him again. She never did anything to him and he still wanted to beat her up.
I don't know how to feel about it, and I sure as hell don't want to not know if I ever see him again. Because I want to pound the shit out of him.
I haven't talked to Sam in weeks. I don't know how to feel there either. I mean, if she wants Pansy Marc, she can have him, but I just wish I knew what was up. I'm a pretty good-looking guy (girls-that-aren't-my-Mom have said so), I'm funny, I know which fork to use when I'm at one of those fancy restaurants. I don't think I said or did anything to piss her off.
Girls are weird. Even Skink was weird, but at least she could kick a little ass and we were cool that way.
Man, I hate writing this shit down. I'm going to look at this in a few years and want to smack myself for being such a putz.
Current Mood: annoyed
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May 9th, 2005
12:44 pm
Lots of things to remember. I have to write in this more often.
I don't get Sam. We were all cool and everything through the winter. We snuggled and watched scary movies, we kissed, we played soccer together, she likes skateboarding and doesn't freak out when she falls, she smells great and I like the way she kisses.
But the other day she wouldn't come near me, and I don't know why. All of a sudden now she doesn't want to cuddle up when we have a whole half-day without anyone bugging us? I even showered so I wouldn't stink. What happened to kissing her in the woods that day and I know she dug it. I know I dug it too. Now it's just "Hi" in the halls and looking away real quick before I say anything else.
I bet it's him. This didn't start until after Mister New Guy came into the picture on Recreation Day. I don't even know the guy and I want to kick his ass, but if she's into him I'm not gonna score any points going after mister Sensitive New Age Pansy Boy.
I should have stuck with just being her friend. But she's all pretty with all that hair and those eyes...she doesn't like me. Maybe I should have stuck with Skink, and now the only other girl that's even remotely cool (that talks to me) has a stupid boyfriend.
Anyway.
Talked to Mr. Summers about my folks after he said I could go home for Mother's Day weekend. He was concerned, I think, and said he'd look into it. I'm concerned too, dammit. They're my parents and they shouldn't have to be dealing with this just because of me.
But I said all that before.
Mother's Day was fun. Dad and I took Mom to her favorite restaurant and had a good time, like it was before all this shit happened. Then we came home and found more trash in the yard. Where do they GET all this trash! Dad and I cleaned it up and I think Mom cried.
Taught Miss Grace the basics of climbing.
I gotta get out and fly, or talk to Miss Rogue and ask for some DR time so I can just get all this out of my system. It's either that or I'm gonna get out of here, find Hayle and kick his fucking ass.
Current Mood: angry
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April 13th, 2005
09:34 am
Great, spring break.
Want to know how I spent it? Cleaning up garbage from my parents' lawn every day.
Ever since Hayle's mom's fucking group found out that I was a mutant, people started dumping trash on their lawn. Dad's car's been keyed twice. Mom's had dogshit smeared across her windshield. They just clean it up and keep loving me. I don't know how they keep loving me, but now I feel bad for every time I snuck out or disobeyed them.
I got egged twice when I was on my way to the skate park.
I told them they should move. They said that they're not the ones in the wrong, so they're not moving. They shouldn't have to put up with this because of me. The police haven't done shit either, because the Hayles have them in their pocket. They just smirk and take notes and tell me to keep my nose clean. Their noses are so far up the Hayle's asses that they probably know what they had for breakfast.
Summer's gonna be a nightmare. With Sam in Ohio or some crazy distance away, my ramp buddies avoiding me because they gotta go to school with the assholes who'll come after them if they know they hang with me...
This sucks.
I wanna be a hero again, not some mutie whose parents have to suffer for it.
Current Mood: pissed off
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March 6th, 2005
03:19 pm
Something happened last night. There was some kind of invasion or something. They put us all in the Danger Room until it was okay, and Sam said that there were bees and she got stung. Something bad happened to Kate and they wouldn't let anyone see her.
Sam's okay, but nobody's said anything to us. Miss Frost has been holed up in her office. I hope they say something soon.
At least I don't have my arm in a sling anymore.
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February 21st, 2005
09:31 am
Oh wow, I worked in the Danger Room. I found out a little about how high I can go and how fast, and Rogue said I did good and I'm so gonna be an X-Man.
I went to the V-Day dance too, with Sam. I hate ties but I love flying carpets. But enough about that for now.
So now it's back to boring classes and waiting for more flying practice with Rogue. And maybe something with Sam. It sucks trying to date when we can't leave campus.
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February 7th, 2005
11:10 am
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February 1st, 2005
03:03 am
It's late. Or early.
I can't turn the damned light off. I keep hearing that groany noise and expecting a little kid that meows to pop up next to my bed. I don't even think I'll be able to look at Kate's boyfriend tomorrow without freaking
Sam kissed me. On the cheek, but still.
Guess I'll work on my list since I can't sleep.
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January 26th, 2005
10:38 am
I fucking hate shoveling snow. We had a damned snowblower at home, and I have to do the driveway and walks with just a shovel?
This is Hayle's fault. Chuckie-boy, your ass is mine when I see you again. I don't care what Summers said about losing my temper. How can they sit there and let bitches like Hayle's mom and her little soccer-mom militia spew that crap without saying something? We're not out to hurt them, but if they keep talking like that...it's like when you tell a kid quit crying or I'll give you something to cry about. We can only take so much.
I want to hit something, seriously, but by the time I'm done shoveling I'm too tired to even lift my fists. Maybe that's what Summers wanted.
I still have to make that stupid list of what I want to learn, too. Shit.
I hate shoveling snow.
Current Mood: annoyed
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January 17th, 2005
09:35 am
This place is going to ROCK.
I don't have a roommate, I have my own bathroom, and I'm going to school with the X-Men. As teachers, I mean. Iceman was the one that welcomed us to the school! I can't wait to meet all the others.
Mom cried. I hate it when she cries. She cries whenever I try something new, or get hurt trying something new. Dad was cool about it and calmed her down but it was hard watching them go. Not because I'm going to miss them or anything, but because I know Mom's going to cry when she gets home.
I can't not be myself Mom. I'm sorry it makes you cry or makes you scared, but I wish you'd trust me sometimes instead of worry.
I got a whole school of kids to meet, and they're all mutants like me. I know Kate and what she can do, and I know she's got friends that she can introduce me to.
The X-Men are my teachers
This place already rocks.
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January 11th, 2005
03:22 pm
Stupid Xavier's School.
I shredded the brochure my folks left for me, not that it makes any difference. Dad laid down the law, Mom wrote the check, and my future was fucking decided.
I want to fly away. I want to fly away from their stupid fear that I'll get hurt. I'm NOT going to get hurt! Do they think I WANT to see them like they were after I fell? I'm okay now, I made sure I wouldn't even walk with a limp like the doctors said I would. Can't they see that even if I get hurt, I'll get better?
They better not have fucking uniforms.
Me and Kate? Oh, we're gonna have WORDS.
I have to talk to Skink.
Current Mood: pissed off
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January 3rd, 2005
11:59 am
I can't talk to anyone else, and Skink is sick of hearing about it, so I'll try this.
I rock. Totally.
I'd been waiting for a chance to kick Hayle's ass for the longest time. I knew how he felt about mutants (the apple doesn't fall far from THAT tree), and if anyone deserved a kick in the head it was him.
Then he had to go and spin that stupid story to the papers. Made me want to kick his ass all over again. At least I got to spread the rumor that he'd pissed himself. I hope he finds out it was me that said it, I really do.
Kate's cute. Skink's gone all broody on me ever since she found us after that night I kicked Hayle's ass. I don't know what's up with her sometimes. I think hanging with those Morlock folks is making her pissed off at other mutants who can pass for normal.
Nothing on patrols lately. Neighborhood watch makes it tougher these days. No word from Kate either. Hope she didn't get in trouble.
I kicked Hayle's ass. So cool.
Current Mood: satisfied
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